Reliving Childhood :D

Most people say that childhood memories are the best memories we got as a human person. They are as unique and special as we are and remembering those days is like visiting a garden where colors are brighter and softer and everything seemed so light and stress free.

Anyway, a friend of mine just posted a blog wherein she list down the things she misses most about her childhood. All the crazy, fun and young things she had done before, stuff like that. Well...reading her blog, I thought of why not make my own version, ha! I got plenty of fun memories to share myself! haha :D

When I was a kiddo, I can really say I got the best kitchen playsets a young girl could ever ask for! haha! I'm not bragging or what, I just love love love those memories with me playing those mini sets! haha! I remember my friends coming to our house to check what's new with my sets and we love playing "the fastfood chain stuff" wherein we play as waitresses and costumers. I'm usually the chef and the counter girl. ha! :D But the best part of it was us using leaves as our money! hahaha i remember my grandma getting mad at us because we used to pluck leaves from her plants :D hahaha sorry Lola :)

Another unforgettable part of my childhood was this muddy/sloppy pathway we used to trail on our way to school! haha! i guess most kids in our village will never forget that small alley. When it rains, that alley turns into this hell of muds!!! hahaha! And since it's the shortest and fastest way to school, many kids in our place follow that way and i'm one of those kids!!! haha! So we always pray that it won't rain coz' if it rains, we have to change our route or sadly we have to follow that pathway and just try our best to reach the school with our shoes still clean! hahaha! And oh btw, my school was near our house so obviously, we just walk our way to it :) ( mai, remember this?. haha)

These next memories i got would be i guess every child's most unforgettable memories. Remember those days when you first played in the rain with your friends? or those days when you wore your shirts/blouses or shorts inside out? or those days that you peed on your bed? or even on your pants? hahahaha well I'm guilty with the last two. hahaha :D Actually, I still got plenty of fun memories to share but I don't wanna make this too long so that's just it :)

Well anyway, it is healthy for us to relive those days once in a while. They can be a chill pill for us, you know to relax and laugh. It is important for us to take our minds away from a lot of negative things happening in the world today and just you know, be young and joyful:)

"The older I grow the more earnestly I feel that the few joys of childhood are the best that life has to give."
~Ellen Glasgow

4 years old pic in my mom's wallet:)

ONE WORD ONLY! :D

I'm bored. :p

1. Where is your gadget? table
2. Your significant other? unknown
3. Your hair? long
4. Your mother? working
5. Your father? far
6. Your favorite thing? mirror
7. Your dream last night? nothing
8. Your favorite drink? juice
9. Your dream/goal? togetherness
10. The room you're in? simple
11. Your church? catholic
12. Your fear? death
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? LA
14. Where were you last night? house
15. What you're not? Forward
16. Muffins? chocol8chips
17. One of your wish list items? car :P
18. Where you grew up? Davao
19. The last thing you did? TV
20. What are you wearing? shirt
21. Your TV? silver
22. Your phone? cool
23. Your computer? bestbud
24. Your life? bumpy
25. Your mood? relax
26. Missing someone? absolutely
27. Your car? none
28. Something you're not wearing? shoes
29. Favorite store? St.Laurent
30. Your summer? house
31. Like(love) someone? yes
32. Your favorite color? blue
33. Last time you laughed? now
34. Last time you cried? yesterday
35. Who will re post this? anyone

Where Are You?

I just took this "Who Is Your Soulmate?" quiz on facebook and it says I belong to someone with class. ha! For me, it isn't necessarily to be like that but I must admit, I somehow like the idea. haha :D

The exact result was "Your future lover should be someone with class. You belong with someone polite and never afraid to admit their mistakes. He will help you see the good in life and appreciate everything."

Wherever you are, COME OUT COME OUT!!!

Midnight Survey :D

It's now 12+ midnight and I just wanna put something here before I sleep. Ha! Survey time again! :D

DRAMA 08

was there lots of drama? -Yes! A big YES. It was one heck of a year for me!
did you start any? -Aw it wasn't like a "fight drama", it was more of self-drama!
if so, why? -Hmmm... it was just depressing and all :D
was there drama over relationships? -No
did you lose a friend over drama? - yeah i guess
were you stuck in between drama? -Most of the time

LOVE 08
did you have a crush that you`ll never forget? -Yes. All of my crushes actually. HAHA!
did you tell someone you love them? -Yes. I love doing that :)
how many people did you have a crush on? -HAHA so many!!!! are celebrities included? haha! :D

FRIENDS 08
did you make any new friends? -Yes
did you lose any friends? -Hell yeah!
have you ever dated your bestfriend?- i dont hav a guy bestfriend:D
how was it? -haha i'm straight. :D

CHANGING 08
have you changed? -Yes :) but more on the physical aspect:D
have you changed for a current person? -Some of me
do you have different color hair then beginning of school? -I dyed my hair Jan.20, Pres. Obama's Inauguration. HAHA!
do you have different friends? -wat do u mean?
have you learned anything new? -A big YES.
have you learned anything about girls/boys that you wish you always knew? -hmm.. think so

RANDOMS
whens your birthday? -April 5
whats your favorite song? - i always find this question the hardest!!! :( got plenty! but right now, i'm loving Sara Bareilles and Colbie Caillat's music.
what song reminds you of that special person? -The little things by colbie caillat
whats your name? -Kristine, Ma. Kristine to be exact
do you have a brother?- No
who do you miss the most? - my dad and my ateneo friends... T_T

A very cute memoir :)

My very very very dear friend Jera gave this very cute pin to me before I left Philippines. I was so touched when I got this. :) But what's really interesting was the story behind this gift. It was pretty funny for me. HAHAHA! The night before my departure I told Jera that I'm gonna stop by at their house before my flight coz' I'm gonna leave some stuff to her(FYI, jera and I live in the same vicinity). My flight schedule was 5:15 in the morning. I planned to leave the house with my uncle when 3 strikes and unfortunately it was already pass 2am that I got ready so I decided not to go anymore at Jera's house. I just thought of leaving the stuffs to my father so he'll be the one to give it to Jera.

On the other side, I didn't know that Jera was still waiting for me in their house. As far as I can remember I told her that i will no longer stop by but she's telling me now that I didn't tell her. I also had no idea she was planning to give me something. So going back, she kept on waiting for me and time had passed. I didn't really know that she was waiting so I didn't bother also texting her and I also didn't mind my phone that time.

These next happenings were according to her already and a bit complicated, but i'll try my best to uncomplicate it.haha! So she told me that she immediately went to our house when I wasn't answering any of her text messages and phone calls. HAHA she ran her way to our house and take note it was 4am!!! haha! Unfortunately, I was no longer there. So she left the gift which is this pin put in a small bag in our gate. She then contacted my father who was also unaware that I already left the house! haha yeah, my own father didn't know. I really planned on not telling him coz' I dont want him to go with me to the airport and also I already bid my adieu to him like gazillion times already. haha! And I also left him a letter and everything was there :) So anyway going back, since Jera texted him, he was now informed! My father then hurriedly took his way home and then just found out I was really no longer there. He took what Jera had left in our gate and he then called my uncle's phone. Luckily, I haven't boarded the plane yet. I guess you guys can predict what happened next. :)

I really appreciate this gift je! It means a lot. It has a story with it!:D I'm gonna keep this for life just like our friendship :)

Meme of Fives

Ha! So here's the thing, if I post Memes, Surveys whichever, that only means I have nothing to write about at the moment. haha:D Anyhoo, today's meme is all about some random fives i currently have :)

5 Things Found In My Bag

1. Mirror
   
2. Wallet
   
3. Pen
   
4. Comb
   
5. Cellphone
   

5 Things Found In My Wallet

1. Old college photos
   
2. 2 bills and some coins
   
3. Receipts
   
4. A letter
   
5. My mom's id :D
   

5 Things Found In My Room

1. Bed
2. Laptop
3. Table
   
4. Scrapbooks
   
5. Frames with photos
   

5 Things I’ve Always Wanted To Do

1. hosting & directing
   
2. travel with my fam whole again
   
3. see europe with friends
   
4. snowshoeing! :D
   
5. manage my own business
   

5 Things I’m Currently Into

1. Blogging
2. Short films
   
3. Twitter and Facebook
   
4. Couch potato-ing! ha! I love DVD nights til morning!:D
   
5. POLYVORE and can i make it six?
   
6. my mom's tinola! LOL :D

And oh btw, i also made this in relation with my birthday! i was born on the 5th day of April and yes it's coming up! :D

Dear friend I terribly miss,

I think of you.

There is no day I don't miss you.

I'm sorry I've been out of touch.

I know there are gazillion ways to be in touch but there is this part of me that chose not to do so :(

I know u'll be great even without me.

I always wish you HAPPINESS and I hope somehow you know that.

You'll never be forgotten my friend and
I believe one day we'll meet again.

I just wish that the memories we had were enough for you not to forget me.

In case you miss me too, just so you know that it's always not more than how much
I MISS YOU.

BIST THE BEST

I'm super super touched right now, my best friend made this simple yet so meaningful picture for me! <3 I appreciate it so much. I love it that she thinks I may had bring out the best in her. I believe so coz' I've always been wanting the best for her. She's a very talented person and a very genuine one too. But what's the best about her is she's hella crazy and I love her for that!
I always wish her all the happiness in life:D I MISS HER SO BADLY!
We call each other bist, hard-tounge for best. HAHA!
BIST IS THE BEST! :D

Should I give up or Should I keep on Chasing Pavements?

This line of the song Chasing Pavements really hit me. It's the question that keeps on running through my mind like forever now. Yeah I know the song is all about relationship and everything but the song can speak of life also. A lot of us or should i say most of us have this kind of uncertainty wherein we keep on doing things which we think can lead us to something and then later on we realize that it's been empty pavements that we are following. To me chasing pavements is metaphorical for going after a dream or a possibilty and holding onto a thought, feeling regardless of how hopeless it may seems. A bit like a wild goose chase. :(

Well anyway, I also,somehow, experienced what the song really conveys coz' for me the song speaks of someone who terribly love someone but too scared to tell, in fear of rejection. I know it's foolish, dorky, naive name it! but hell, i can't blame myself, we were friends! But i wish i had told him, coz' even if it didn't change anything, at least he'd know how i felt.

click to listen

"CHASING PAVEMENTS"

I've made up my mind,
No need to think it over,
If i'm wrong I aint right,
No need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
This is love but,

If i tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And thats exactly what i need to do,
If i'm in love with you,

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Vindication

So if you happen to have read my previous blog about my colorgenic result, here's my vindication of it but if u haven't read it yet, don't bother anymore :)

Yes, there was really a time in my life that i felt like giving up. I was so down and I didn't know what to do. I don't wanna say this but i feel like I've been down for a long time already. I lost my direction in life (i mean my own direction... MY OWN.) I've been stressed and depressed cause i think too much and not do anything. I was so weak and I felt so vulnerable all the time. You know the feeling of every decision you made seemed to be like a mistake and you were like so hopeless and you don't know if you will ever attain true happiness again? Actually this feeling started even before I left my homeland then it just got worse during my first few months here. Number one reason was my family, second was my course then third was my slowly diminishing intimate relation with God. Several months ago, I left my homeland Philippines to be with my mom here in this very distant place, Canada. At first, i was really really thrilled about it because i really wanted to live in a totally different place and also I've been dying to be with her. But despite all these, I was also aware of the fact that a lot will change and a lot will surely happen to me. In line with this, I cut my studies there in the Philippines. I was once an accounting student but honestly, i was never really that interested with the course. However, it was a bit painful for me though, i mean leaving the course, coz' i build some friendships in that sphere and I really treasure those friendships. I was also aware that I'll be so far from my dad. As what I've said, i came from a shattered home.Yeah, I've been through a lot! But happy to say, I am OK now. Yes, i am. Many realizations came up to me these past few months and I believe that as long as I am breathing, I can attain the true happiness :) And as what the result says, I need to have time to think and to focus, to recuperate, to be able to make my own decisions. I need to be needed and would like a situation where I will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands.

I just wish I'll be understood someday and I hope all of this will be worth it. Now i can say I found my strength. And it's been here underneath me. I wanna thank God for everything. For every circumstances He put me through. Let your will be done Lord. Be with me. :) I have read in a book recently that it is important for us to say to our selves that we are getting better each day. So, here i am doing so.

I AM GETTING BETTER :)

Freakin' True :(

I stumbled upon this blog of a friend wherein she wrote about this test she took on a website called COLORGENICS. She kept on telling about how scary and spooky her result was. I got so intrigued so I immediately visited the site and see for myself. And guess what, she was right! I can't even express enough how i felt the moment i read my result. I was shocked, stunned and amazed. And up to now, I'm still really puzzled on how they created the site. Creepy.

Anyway, here's my result and YES, this is how i FEEL and THINK right now. :(

"At this time in your life you feel like 'giving up'. For every time you have tried to build up your hopes and dreams something has come along to burst the balloon. You may feel that, at this particular moment in your life, there seems to be no chance of fulfilling these dreams but you are so wrong. You are the sort of person that can influence any situation, that is - If you don't give up. So consciously make the effort... You have that inherent power to succeed. You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence. Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offense, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict. You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions. You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realize those dreams and to turn them into reality."

-----> If you wanna know why i feel this way, please read the blog after this. And oh by the way, if u still haven't tried the test, please please do. It's just short and you don't have to type, trust me. Here's the link : http://www.goldinuniverse.com/ Then it would be nice if you'll tell me about how do you find ur result :)

WARNING : Only read this if you really want to get to know me! :D

I am nowhere near perfect. I am not cut out as a bright and shiny kind of person but I'm always workin' for HAPPINESS. I believe I'm smart but I'm not "know-it-all". I love having FUN most of the time and I'm basically the person whose up for anything:) I love to talk and I love meeting new people, especially those who can educate me. MUSIC is my hideway and I love to sing, I'm not pretty good at it but i have faith in my voice. ha:) I can say I'm a very thoughtful person. I love telling people about the good things in them, i dont know why but i just feel so light when I do such thing. :) But one thing I don't like about myself is that I am very IMPULSIVE and that sucks! I tend to easily give in on my desires and not knowing what it could cause me. :( I am very fickle too. I want this now, I want that later. :( I guess i have to work on changing that.

I have dramas in life. I came from a shattered home, my parents got separated when i was 10 and since then i never had the chance to be with my mom, dad & sister at the same time. It's sad but I everntually get used to it. But despite all of these, I still love to see the beauty in life. I love to laugh and in fact, i laugh a lot! haha:) I strongly believe in God's existence though I'm a big offender myself. I am spiritual too.I love holidays:)

Anyway, I'm a daydreamer, haha, and some of my greatest dreams are to be a host of my own travel show, to be one of the racers of amazing race, to be a broadcaster or to direct/produce my own film(SOMEDAY! i wish):p I love watching movies and I'm totally a couch potato at home. I also love to watch shows that can teach me some realities of life, can make me laugh, can make me believe that i can pursue the things i want and can make me spread love even more. I love to help people who deserves to be helped. I want to build my own foundation and be a philantrophist.

Anyway, I'm not a straight-forward kind of person, its hard for me to tell someone how i feel about him/her. I am very emotional too, I can't stop myself from crying over a movie, a situation or whatever it is that made me so sad:( And also I can't hold tears when too overwhelmed. haha. And by the way, I easily get irritated with people who are very insensitive and a little too cocky. So if u think you are, u just wasted your time reading my blog, I don't want to know you! :p

XO, Kristine :)

Some of my Firsts

1.Who was your FIRST prom date?
---It's more of like a partner than a date. The coordinators were the one who assigned us and what the heck, i can't even remember who was my partner back then. LOL

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
---No. Haven't seen him for ages.

3. What was your 1st alcoholic drink?
---Beer i think.

4. What was your FIRST job?
---Haven't had one

5. What was your FIRST car?
---Haven't owned one yet. SOON.. promise. haha :)

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
---Sadly, the first text i got was a network alert. haha!

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
---i can't tell. but certainly a person from the past.

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
---OMG. how can i forget?! hmm... Ms. Rose? crap. not sure.

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
---From Davao to Manila

10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
---Rikka... No, we're like "who are you?" these days.

11. Where was your FIRST sleepover?
---hmmm... probably at Leslie's House. haha! terribly miss those days!

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
---Richelle

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
---Geraldine & Don2's ( the bride is my cousin)

14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
---Poop! haha

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
---WTH, never been. My hometown is so far from the metro where big concerts usually happen!!! argh...

16. FIRST tattoo?
---It was just a henna. haha no big deal. but it was a butterfly. :)

17. First piercing?
---Never had and never will.

18. First foreign country you ever went to?
---HongKong

19. FIRST movie you remember seeing in the theater?
---Babe: Pig in the City, but i'm not sure with this. It was just the first movie that came to mind.

20. FIRST Detention you had
---Always been a good student haha;P

21. What was the first state you lived in?
---Davao City, Philippines

22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
---My sister

23. If you had one wish. What would it be?
---To have my own travel show wherein i'm the host! :)

24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
---Filmmaking/Cinematography

25. Who do you think will be the next person to post this?
---Any blog reader :p